​Whew! I don’t know about you all, but my energy has been free floating and feeling a little chaotic lately. (Being an Earth Sign and having a lot of Earth in my chart, that’s saying a lot!)

​I am also a highly attuned and sensitive Being, so any fluctuations in the moon, the weather, changing seasons, my own cycle, disconcerting community and global happenings, ​I have a tendency to energetically feel it all...even at the most subtle levels.

​Which is an absolutely beautiful gift, but one that I must give care to tenderly.

​I also find that when a creative surge shows up and decides to find a home within me – just as it did this past weekend – while delighted and ecstatic to enjoy its unexpected presence, it can certainly shake my sense of grounding, too.

​The creativity pleads for to me to transmute it and offer it out at a faster rate than I can process it. I know this because I can literally feel the creative ideas swirling around rapidly in my head-space knocking on my brain asking to be let out.

Over the years, however, ​I've learned that the more I try to prematurely unravel its message, the more I find myself stuck in circling thought as I try to figure out how it’s wanting to show up and what it’s needing to say. That “trying to figure it” out goes nowhere fast, and often leads me to a headache and the feeling of overwhelm. Which is definitely NOT the state I wish to be transmuting quality services and creative ideas from.

​So, this is how I honored the chaotic and creative energy that left me feeling ungrounded this past weekend… 

I didn’t try to make it go away, because I know that when something feels uncomfortable for us to experience is resisted, it will only keep showing up…louder, and louder, and louder!

​Instead, I thanked it for its presence, passion, and persistence, and reassured it that I know it has something really glorious and valuable to say. I also reminded it that in order for me to best transmute its gift and message, that I needed to slow down with it and give it lots of space to work out some of its own kinks.

So, while allowing it to just be – and be witnessed by me – I did what I knew how to do to keep myself sane and grounded while its rambunctiousness carried on...

​I walked…a lot.
I journaled and brainstormed.
I read in a book by Ram Dass.
I ate nourishing food, and enjoyed some ice cream, too.
I delighted in napping...and enjoyed hot, soothing, lengthy showers.
I stretched, did yoga, and did breathwork.

​​And guess what happened to that rambunctious, wildly chaotic, creative energy?!

NOTHING! Absolutely nothing!
​It was still there – loud, clear, chaotic, and persistent.
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What did change, though, was my response to its intrusive meanderings. I am not my thoughts – I simply have thoughts. This self-reminder was enough for me to move from participant to witness, and not be carried away or entangled by its jumbled mystique.

​So, here’s the long and short of it…whatever you’re going through, whatever has you feeling un-grounded, un-centered, and a little chaotic in your thoughts and actions…know that you’re not alone. Know that the longer you resist the momentary discomfort, the longer it’ll likely keep its grip on you.

​Instead, stay open to it. Be curious by it. Reassure the discomfort (or creative surge) that you know there’s wisdom to be learned in its message, but that in order for you to fully receive and effectively translate its wisdom, that you need to take care of yourself, slow down, and offer yourself healthy choices that help to ground you. Hang tight and be patient. The discomfort will soon dissolve, and the wisdom will come.

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To help support your process of grounding, centering, and cultivating inner peace – especially during times of discomfort and turmoil – I’ve created a Guided Meditation for you!

​And if you have any curiosity about the creative ideas stirring within me right now...
​they revolve around how I’m being nudged to show up for you in 2019!
​
​(Think...more free gifts, 3-month 1:1 coaching programs, self-paced offerings, sister circles, art, book development, and so much more!)

And as always, thank you for spending time with me today!
​I am happy our paths have crossed...

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​My thoughts were saying things like…

”I wonder how he’d feel if he knew I was out enjoying this beautiful day – would he feel anger and frustration that I was choosing this and he was (choosing to be) in the office?”

​I noticed that I was more concerned over how I thought he may react, and less celebratory over the fact that I was indeed making a really good choice for myself.

​I found my thinking to be insightful and informative...

​What outside conditioning had I received somewhere along the way that said it’s “selfish to give yourself love and care”…? What messaging had I received that has said “you must work from 9am-5pm, and anything other than that is you not working hard enough”…?

​The TRUTH is...

1) self-love is NOT a selfish act - it is an act of love and service; AND,

2) choosing to create my own schedule does NOT imply laziness or a “less than” work ethic – it is once again an act of self-love and courage for designing my day in a way that serves me and others the most.

​So, Dear Ones, if you struggle with any unsupportive/conditioned messaging loops…

...In the name of love, care, service, and owning your truth…CHALLENGE THEM! Create new messaging for yourself. Honor and embrace what is true for you! 

​Whatever it is that brings a sense of peace and grounding to your center, and a soft expansion to your heart…do that!

Don’t apologize for honoring that activity. Don’t apologize for being you. Making apologies for yourself diminishes your Light and shuts down your gorgeous Essence.

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​Last week, another surge of blog ideas found their way to me. "YES," I felt, "my first blog is near." It also became clear on which writing would take center stage and emerge first. Still, the timing wasn't right to write.

This morning while enjoying my fatty coffee and good book ritual, reading Elizabeth Gilbert's words "done is better than good" was just the motivation and nudge I needed to write.

​               Done is better than good.
​                                   Done is better than good.

Letting go of any expectations for this first blog, I will simply start AND finish.
​Done is better than good.

So, here we are...

The "letter to my infant" shared​ below came to me on a flight home after experiencing a weekend conference in Florida learning how to facilitate Guided Breathwork. In any great training, the best way to learn the skills of facilitation is to first experience receiving the skill as a willing participant. 

Whoa! As a participant, my entire Being was cracked wide open...

• I connected with my deepest of deep-seated soul wisdom;
• I experienced spiritual and energetic understandings of certain patterning and blockages I carried;
• I received necessary guidance from loved ones who had previously passed, informing me on how to shift these patterns and blockages;
• I was flooded with absolute appreciation and gratitude for my parents - who they are/were as individuals, as a couple, as parents - for all their shortcomings, as well as their gifts and blessings...and a softening of forgiveness was felt throughout my entire Being.

​And the big one...

• I became overwhelmed and was in awe when the over three decades of unattended birth trauma came whooshing to the surface of my awareness as if the only way for it to get my attention was to create a tidal wave of energy to come crashing into my experience. Well, I noticed. It captured my attention.

​​"​I openly and lovingly welcome you to this place, sweet Soul, and feel so blessed that we’ve arrived here…together. You are so loved already and are such a gift to this World.
 
You may not realize it yet, but you have a very important role to play on this planet, and I will do everything in my power to help you uncover and deepen your relationship with whatever that is.
 
I am honored that our paths have crossed. The world is a better place with you here. You are a miracle and a vital piece to our Collective Global Tapestry. Mama Earth needs you to be You! Let’s savor in that and really explore how you truly wish to show up and serve!
 
I deeply know there is a magnificence inside of you that will raise global consciousness, unity, and love. It’s okay that you may not know how to connect with this truth yet.
 
Let your light shine, little love angel.
In times of inevitable darkness, however, and in those times that you need to rest…rest.
 
Allow yourself to rest…without judgment.
Allow yourself to recharge…with patience.
Allow yourself to re-set, re-member, re-center, and re-enter.
 
And please don’t forget that the simmering light that lives within you is also the Light that will guide you back home to yourself. Always…in all-ways.
 
You are a teacher of grace, humility, purity, and unconditional love – and are an assistor of global peace and harmony.
 
You have an infinitely kind, gentle, inquisitive, and loving Spirit that calms and warms everyone you are near, even if you don’t realize it yet.
 
People are drawn to the security of your loving, open-hearted energy – as if a magnet is leading them toward you. Did you know that?
 
You are a beautiful angel baby that inspires people to embrace the notion that anything is possible. Your determined cries expressing your needs and desires, helps bring clarity to people about their very own needs and desires...as if lifting a veil allowing them to finally see.
 
I vow to nurture your Spirit to the best of my ability. In times that I may let you down, it is because I have somehow let myself down. So I will thank you in advance for holding up a mirror to let me see where I have fallen off-course.
 
As you continue to courageously live in accordance with your aligned course, witnessing this will lead me back to mine. And in those times that you may falter, I will lovingly hold up the same mirror that you once held for me. This is the ebb and flow that you will come to learn in the most beautiful relationships.

This is what life is all about, after all - mastering the art of relationship - 
​                   with yourself, with others, with your community, and with this planet.

I love you, sweet angel baby, and I welcome you with open arms. Thank you for choosing to come here at this time. We have been waiting for you.

With infinite and unconditional love...

Your Mother,
​Earth"

Whew, we did it...
              Done is better than good!

My expectation for this first blog ~ to start AND finish.
My intention ~ to welcome you here, and to let you know...
              I love you...
              I see you...
              And I love and see your little infant within!

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